Sunday, July 6, 2008


I got your comment. Thanks. But, alas, I am not so sure I am enjoying this life. It just happens to be the case. Actually, the reason I have gone public is to try to get people to help me with comments, instructions, empathy, etc.

Anyway, I am glad you got in and the comment came through. Thanks.


Pete said...

Carl, You are too talented and too smart to spend time (minutes, hours, days, weeks and maybe even years) not enjoying life. Purpose every day to enjoy the day you have been given. We love you, Pete

Carl said...

Yes, you are right. Do you think it is enough to 'purpose'?

Poo Rang said...

I understand how being poor (as I am now) can use up a lot ( or most) of your energy to do other things (or even to feel like doing anything). It takes a strong person to keep on with things in the face of poverty... I applaud you and I love your art. So I say: please know that even strangers like me will think kind thoughts your way and appreciate you and your art Carl :)

Carl said...

My gosh, that is so meaningful. I am exasperated and feel like I am at the end of my rope. Some of my friends think I like it that way, but I don't think they realize how desperate I end up feeling.

The smallest, nice comment means just everything to me now as I bounce from extreme emotion to the next. Thank you Poo.

Anonymous said...

Los it is great to finally see your "stuff" and have access to you via the net. We love you and think of you often. Your art work is wonderful and hard to believe somebody with so much talent in the art field is related to me. If you need to get away for a nite or so head north. Love, Drew

Carl said...

Thanks dude. Actually, I think I might be depressed. I'm ... stuck. Maybe I need to get a way. This whole credit debt thing has really gotten to me and I feel trapped. After having spent my life abroad living hand to mouth, suddenly I can't make these 'free' decisions anymore.

I appreciate the fact that you think I'm talented. I did just win another contest, entrance into a magazine which will come out in Sept, I think.

Glad you visited the blog. Ciao.

Pete said...

You are no doubt talented. I think to purpose every morning that you are going to enjoy the day is important, and then stay focused on it throughout - I personally have experienced many things in life that could have gotten me 'down', but I purposed not to let that happen. God, faith, right thoughts, right decisions - keep going on. Love ya.

Carl said...


I'm trying that, but it almost seems like a game to me. Like, I'm trying to out trick my own mind.

Here's what I mean. My mind says, "You feel lousy now, don't have any reason to live, are in a basement, etc, at your age so why should you be happy?"

Then I say, "No, I feel good." And I feel like it is a kind of game.

Carl said...

"Then it continues all day and I don't have any data that convinces me that this positive thinking stuff actually wins.

Then, some other day I feel good and don't have to play the game. I mean, I don't have to have all the comebacks ready to convince myself. It's weird.

My neighbor thinks malnutrition might be affecting my outlook and mind. So I am starting to eat.